Recently i came to know that i m going to be a mother soon, i felt nothing i was numb, i am a total filmi person , watched so many films and wen this news comes in films heroines are so excited they are on the top of the world , but it didint happened to me infact i was surprised and afraid too, i dont know why , suddenly i fet my all freedom will be gone , i wont be able to do things in my own way bla bla bla .... all kinds of questions starting popping up in my mind.

Doc tod me congratulations and i said in a very casual way thanks , my husband was so happy so excited , it was both of our decision to start a family but them why i wasnt happy , dont know? Me was totally confused and afraid.I was quite , my inlaws ,they were at home at that time , wen we cme back from doc , they were also happy , everybody was happy but not me.They (my inlaws) were having next day flight back to India, that night my mother in law gave me a lecture of do's and dont's , i kept quite and listened to all of them. I didint talked to my husband that whole night and next day also,was so afraid and tensed, how everything going to happen , what i will do etc , will everything be fine or not.

My greatest strenght my sis (elder) was also not at her home as i can talk to her , bcoz she herself delivered a baby boy recently and was at her mother in law, in the meantime my condition and all effects of becoming mom , started creeping in....

Then my husband came and started talking to me , that everything will be fine and we will be happy, it was a decision of ours and godis with us , nothing will happen wrong , that day i felt little better. and then after few days my sis returned from hospital i talked to her and she also told me the same thing it is right time for you as you are growing older also, i was convinced and felt good.

Just wanted to share this , bcoa wanted to know does it happen with everybosy or i m the one who is feeling afraid of what will happen etc.